19 December 2011
My ward doesn't have any Christmas decorations and the seasonal spirit is a little lacking among staff.
Christmas day is just another working day for most doctors. We do the shifts the rota tells us to and pray that it's not busy, or that if it is busy then the day goes quickly.
So to all the NHS and frontline staff working over the festive period, I salute you and wish you a decent working shift.
12 December 2011
08 December 2011
The night before change over I had to leave one hospital, pack my room into my car and travel to a new place and a new hospital.
Chaos isn't the word.
Today was the first day on the wards after induction and was a very steep learning curve.
I hope tomorrow will be easier, but we'll have to see...
05 December 2011
The nurses are upset because they've just got us trained!
I just hope my next job is as amazing as this one has been...
04 December 2011
It does make you feel very uncertain when you have to change jobs every four months, and probably kicks junior doctor confidence somewhat.
But hey, I knew the drill when I got my jobs list last year. Best of luck to everyone on Wednesday when they start their new jobs.
PS, don't get sick this week unless it's before Wednesday!
01 December 2011
Had I been balloted to strike and patients would not be at risk then I would be stood on a picket line with a placard.
It's not just about my wages, it's about my family who also work for the NHS, it's about the hard working team of nurses, paramedics, porters, radiographers etc who work with me to make health care here something to be proud of.
The population is getting older, and instead of this being just a problem it is evidence of a strong and effective NHS.
Shouldn't THAT be something to stand up for?
22 November 2011
It's a hoop jumping exercise where you have to get various skills and competencies signed off and evidenced by people more senior than yourself.
|Check out all the lovely green on there!|
It could be easier.
On the plus side, I'm a completely neurotic freak and have got loads of mine signed off already.
02 November 2011
As a student I always hated surgery and found it barbaric, yet now I'm really pining to see procedures and get involved. It's truly bizarre how much I've changed as a person.
When I started in August I lacked confidence and the ability to ask questions, now I'm quite comfortable managing patients and doing stuff under my own steam (although the concept of doing a mini-ward round on my own freaks me out).
And more amusingly, in July I was still a medical student, yet now I have 4 of my very own - and I bloody love them. I will be taking them for beer when they leave!
So yes, generally life is good and I'm thoroughly enjoying being a doctor, well at least for the moment.
12 October 2011
I'm back at work and probably healthier than I've been in a long time and I'm loving work again.
I still have a profound fear of one of the consultants, but as long as I keep avoiding her then it's all good.
What worries me is that I'm reviewing patients on my own and making decisions. I just don't feel confident enough sometimes, but then my patients seem to be doing ok so I can't be that bad...
01 October 2011
I got hospitalised again with something rather painful which has now thankfully resolved (and hopefully this time stays away for good).
So back to work soon with some trepidation. Hope I'm fit enough...
19 September 2011
This time the care has been exemplary and the nurses truly wonderful. While I know my hospital has a good reputation, I can't help but feel that the reason I have a private side room is because I am a doctor here.
I'm sure the senior emergency department registrar doesn't personally cannulate all his patients and give them IV morphine within 20 minutes of their arrival into the department.
If I didn't feel so unwell and in pain I'd probably feel spoilt.
Anyhow, at least I'm in the right place, I just hope I can get back to work soon, as I'm actually missing it.
05 September 2011
On the plus side when I go back to work my rota changes again to allow me to work more manageable working hours with no nights and only a few weekends on call.
Interestingly I may now be undecided on my career path as I'm really enjoying doing a surgical job. I wonder if every rotation I do will be like this or if I've just found a niche that I love.
Anyway, back to work next week!
15 August 2011
I've done more rectal examinations in 2 nights than in 5 years as a student.
But I still haven't introduced myself as Dr Jones. It still sounds wrong. I inwardly cringe a little when my boss introduces us as Miss Smith and Dr Jones. I keep expecting it to be pulled away from me at any second.
Most of all, despite the poo, smells and endless nights I have some amazing colleagues and fantastic nurses as company.
I love being a doctor. It was well worth the effort
02 August 2011
31 July 2011
It wasn't fun and I ended up calling an ambulance out for myself. Now anyone who knows me will recognise that I hate people who waste the ambulance service's time. In fact I even called a friend who was working as an ambulance technician that night and asked his advice. So I ended up getting some help, and some decent analgesia (I'm actually reasonably scared of needles, so to let a paramedic cannulate my hand goes some way to show how much pain I was in) - I loved entonox so much that night, and after some IV morphine the pain was a lot more bearable.
Anyhow, a few days later and after some IV antibiotics I was discharged, and then readmitted when the pain got worse. More IV antibiotics, lots of analgesia and some fluids later I went home. Things are better now but still not perfect.
Anyhow, a big thanks to the ambulance service for their help that night and for not treating me like a muppet when I went a bit mad on entonox.
Since then it's all been a bit of a whirlwind.
- introduced my parents to my inlaws
- got my GMC registration
- moved to my new hospital
- done half of induction week
- gone to a mess party
- met some of my consultants
- and started answering bleeps when shadowing
26 July 2011
It's a good job that I'm staying over at the hospital this week, because this is an ungodly hour to be getting up...
25 July 2011
16 July 2011
If anyone feels like sticking a few quid in the paypal account at the top to help me afford to alleviate my boredom I would love you all forever.
A very bored, hurting and skint Merys
I'm still in pain, still not sleeping too well and still have no idea what's going on.
But on the plus side I did have a frank discussion with my parents about depression and why I'd never told them. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but I maintain that I was right not to tell them initially. Mood is currently a lot better on venlafaxine.
Fingers crossed home soon before starting work.
12 July 2011
So for now I just have to survive the night with old ladies snoring their heads off around me. I may go insane.
10 July 2011
The pain is worse and is compounded by other factors (that I may or may not blog about in the future).
The food is terrible and I've not been happy at all. But we still aren't sure what's going on.
Maybe the new week will bring some answers.
28 June 2011
22 June 2011
07 June 2011
Red wine, green tea, Wagamama's and the Cheese and Onion...
Originally uploaded by merysjones
31 May 2011
30 May 2011
In fact, I've even decided that the gym is better than revision, so that's where I'm off to now.
See you around, when I shall probably be procrastinating more.
17 May 2011
Despite wearing my most comfortable of shoes I managed to give myself stonking blisters on both feet.
I have covered more of the hospital than I ever thought possible, yet so far, despite aching feet and fat ankles, I love it.
My hands have examined many abdomens, chests, hands and bottoms. They have scrubbed in on very long surgeries and found elusive veins*.
They have also been chewed down to the wick lately due to impending finals fear.
* I love it when patients tell me that I won't get blood. I really will, no matter how long I have to palpate invisible vein.s
25 April 2011
22 April 2011
So the boy and I went out yesterday for a chilled drink in the park and a break from revision.
Wish me luck, it's probably going to be a hot few weeks while I swelter away in my study cramming for finals.
13 April 2011
30 March 2011
07 February 2011
For some time I have been feeling very unwell. As a result of this I'm going to take a brief blogging and tweeting sabbatical.
I will still answer emails (probably) and I'm going to keep my twitter account, facebook page and hotmail account active - in fact i'm often logged in to MSN.
But I need some time to myself to recuperate. There is a very real risk at the moment that I may not sit finals this year due to health problems so I think it is best that I vanish for a while.
I'll be back, but I don't know when.
See you on the flip side....
03 February 2011
23 January 2011
15 January 2011
I passed all my exams from last unit first time, which means I have 2 exams and a project left before finishing. Let's hope they all go ok.
This year I made a different resolution to what I would normally make. There's still the obvious one: lose weight.
But this year I've added a couple of different ones...
Stay true to myself. I am who I am and I need to respect myself for it.
Get a tattoo. I've decided that it's time after finals to adorn my body with something. To be decided upon.
And add to that the need to work my morethanample arse off and that's my year.